Omien tunteiden purkaminen tällä tavalla tuntuu vieraalle, mutta se voi tehdä ihan hyvää tälläiselle ihmismielelle. Yrittämisestä tuskin on haittaakaan niin miksipä ei ? Enkä edes tässä tätä kirjoittaessani ole varma tuleeko nämä tekstit koskaan julki. Sitä suuremmalla syyllä teen tätä vain omaksi ilokseni. Tunteiden ja mielitilojen selventämiseksi itselleni.
Back in business bitches, I wanna try to wrote some text on english and littlebit finnish. Don't know how well this will go but I wanna try. Get my feelings out with some words.
Right now I feel love in my chest. But I'm jealous too. Because that boy I'm in love with is something I really want. But I make hes life little hard asking questions 'with who you was?' 'who send you a text message?' all the time. I don't really let he keep anything on he's own. But I'm scared that he had someone else with who he can have fun. Even if I know that he will never cheat me. But it's because he did it with me when he was with someone else. He didin't directly cheat her cos he didin't kiss me or anything like that. He just talk me like we were together and held me in hes arms. It's not cheating but its not good thing. Maybe I'm scared for nothing or for something don't know. Maybe I should ask. But i don't wanna that he think that i don't trust him. Because I do, I just don't trust on myself.
That boy is just wow. Something what makes me nervous and it's weird because normality anyone don't make me nervous just him. I don't wanna make anything wrong cos I'm scared that it will be our end. I'm happy now, happier than i ever imagine that i could be. But i'm right now when i'm with him. That feeling when i can just hug him and be close to him. Oww.. really want in his bed with him now. Just watching him and thinking how happy and how much i'm in love with him.
